Paradox of the perfect life.

We build these lives in our minds. As we grow up. These lives we see. This man or woman to come along and fufill us. This home we long for, these cars, a good job. These material things that essentially mean nothing. We build this life. We may even get a chance to live it. But there is something missing and you just can not pin point what it is. You aren't happy. You struggle day to day to find what you think your looking for. 

These lives that we are told to live. Is a lie. The paradox of the "perfect life" with the white picket fence and all that shit. It's bullshit. It is a idea of a government. To keep us contained. It's a idea of our parents, our parents parents, their parents. It's bull shit. You build this life in your mind. The only life that you live that feels good, it's true to your soul. 

And what is true to your soul, may not be the "paradox of a perfect life" 

It maybe, you are alone raising your kids with all the people that makes them w you.. There is no picket fence. There is no perfect home. There is no perfect relationship. There is no perfect life. This life you have built in your head, this perfect life, is only going to screw you up. Because when things don't go so perfect, you totally lose yourself and think "I'm miserable, maybe if I do this, it'll make things better" but what you end up doing is piling a bunch of bullshit on bullshit and now you just have a pile of materialistic bullshit. 

So I ask you to ask yourself "what does my soul say?" 

Does my soul feel good? Am I living my personal truth, do I even know my personal truth? 

What you see as perfect in the next persons life is totally bullshit. They are faking it till they make it. And trust me I can spot a fake person one mile away. Build that beautiful home, have that precious family, with the emptiness inside of you. Keep projecting this perfectness. It won't matter, you will crumble anyway. You will start looking to other ways to fill up your soul. I can list them, but I won't.

You have to ask yourself daily, "is my soul happy?" Am I complete? And if your answer is no, you seek. You look to God and you look to the inside of yourself and you find yourself and when you do, you jump into what ever makes you happy. Even if you jump the ship of the "paradox of the perfect life" 

At some point if you aren't happy, it'll all crumble before your very eyes, anyway. Just ask me bout it. Your spirit, your soul has more power than you think. It will wake you up when you least expect it to. And you will have to change the things that you think are the "perfect life" to be what is true to you. Not to your parents ideas, your grandparents ideas, or  society ideas. It's your soul. That is your compass. God guides that. God has direct connection to that energy force that is with in you.