To be crazy.

Well I walk a fine line. I have a story. I was laying down last night, trying to sleep. I can never go to sleep lately, they say when you can't sleep at night is cause your awake in someone else's dreams. That I believe. My ear started aching, and I thought shit I have swimmers ear. We spent the week in the water. We love water. So I'm like hell. I touch my ear. It does not hurt. The pain rolls over me again. It feels like swimmers ear, I touch my ear again, and behind it, it doesn't hurt. I then get up and check my kids, scouts asleep, Jax and Harper are watching tv. In bed. I go lay back down. When I wake up, scout has a ear ache in the ear I was feeling pain. I took him to the dr this afternoon. I told my doctor this story. And I told my doctor how I feel a few friends pains, and I held my hand out in flat and laid my other standing up on it and I said "I realize I walk a fine line here, of crazy, I realize I'm standing on this line and if I'm not careful to what I say about things I have been doing, I'm insane, but I feel like because I know this I am sane" he laughed at me. He's been my dr since 1987 and I have received all kinds of care from him, illness, mental and physical and emotional. He is my moms doctor and my granny's. He KNOWS me and my history. And he said one word "empath" and I said yes. and he said are you asking how to stop it? And I said no, it's a gift. I literally am picking up my peoples physical pain. I don't know if I'm feeling it out of empathy or like taking some of it. I just know I am doing it. The fact I feel my babies pain isn't a shock. I'm surprised I've not noticed it with them sooner. Tonight scout walked In the living room, and I said "does your ear hurt" he tells me "no" because he hates antibiotics. But my ear panged a pang of pain, and said does it hurt? He again said no. And I said scout it hurts, I feel it, he said it hurts a lil. So there's your crazy.